Friday, March 28, 2003

Fascinating, just fascinating.

my friend gave me this. Just a minor detail: It's $3600
Sailing, sailing over the big blue see...
Boy I'd like to man my own vessel. What would I call her? My guitar's official name is Clara...maybe SS Marisol? Mare means 'sea' in Latin, and 'sol' means sun. Where the sun meets the sea, where the sun kisses the sea gently. Okay I'm waxing poetic now. But I want to take sailing lessons in chesapeake

Thursday, March 27, 2003

From a friend's blog:
"i think the role of exterior beauty to a relationship is like the role of affirmative action policy in schools and organizations. it gets the person to the door. beyond that, the person needs to have the inner quality for survival. although it's easier to forgive and ignore the flaws of a "beautiful" person than someone who's just ordinary, even this becomes too taxing after awhile. just something i observed."

This is how I used to think. Mostly in college. Now I pay much less attention to the outward beauty and even to the 'flaws' of a person. What I really want to know and see is, what makes this person tick? What drives this other person to do what she does? Though there are a few I have found attractive in that sense, none have captivated me completely, at least not yet. Maybe it's b/c of that age where young adults are still finding themselves (myself included). Besides, I have a more realistic view of myself, in that I'm pretty ordinary-looking. :)

"For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the
gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of
my hands. For God did not give us a spirit of
timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of
2 Timothy 1:6-7
"the West won the world not by the superiority of its ideas or values or religion but rather by its superiority in applying organized violence. Westerners often forget this fact, non-Westerners never do."

Samuel P. Huntington

While I do agree with this quote in many instances throughout history, I also believe non-Westerners are NOT always the victims. Organized violence and oppression for political motives under the pretense of religion have been used by regimes such as that of Sadaam and the Taliban. Humanitarian aid is a responsibility almost never carried by such states. War is a terrible thing. But there are things worse than war, such as widespread hunger, oppression of peoples, and endangerment of civilians through weapons of destruction. At the heart of Christianity is not just love, for God is not solely an all-loving God; He is also a just God, one that carries vengeance. And the way He does it does sometimes involve eliminating a people under subject of His wrath. Those who are not with Him have much, much to fear!
I'm learning that love is not always pleasant; sometimes you have to tell the other person what they don't want to hear, even when you know exactly how he'll respond. But that's love I guess, sacrificing your comfort level for the benefit of that person. It's the hardest thing, in my opinion. Now I know how my small group leader feels. :P
I'm SO tired! 4.5 hrs of sleep will not cut it for me.

Wednesday, March 26, 2003

Two meetings today. First one was long-2 hrs of sitting in on a discussion between the lab industry representatives and Medicare officials. I represented the lab payment group, but was there to just take notes. Everyone one was really friendly and lightly teased my new entry of 'baptism by fire'. Got some contacts from people that were interested in what I was working on.
Second meeting was just an informative session on 'deskercise', namely proper ergonomics, stretching and yoga exercises to do in the office. It was actually pretty useful stuff, which I might put up on the web later.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

It's never too late to start anew. That's the beauty of being in Christ.
This week is going to be exciting and fruitful spiritually, I know it.

Monday, March 24, 2003

"I am a pastor for this generation."
The theme of this past retreat. Now the question is, do I believe it? If I don't believe it, how can I convince the other brothers to believe it?
Well, I'm going to embrace it fully. You'll see.
I'm trying to print out a powerpoint presentation, but my printer is like constipated (1 sheet/minute)
Is there ex-lax for printers?
Am so bored at work. I guess I could go to my boss's office now to find more things to do, but he's too far away (and I'm too lazy). Oh well. Is it only Monday? Dang, weekend's so far away, so very far away!
What a weekend! So the Fiddler musical was great on Friday, but it was long, and I was really tired. The singing was surprisingly very good, given that many actors are part-time. Saturday I had small group followed by soccer. I am quite out-of-shape for soccer I realized. Well, it would have helped to have cleats in the mud. But it was a lot of fun nonetheless. Sunday after church I played golf with my small group, which I'm nicely improving in. Sunday school was so much fun with the kids, where we did activities that involved blowing bubble over them (to illustrate Holy Spirit's presence).
Then Johnny cooked dinner on Sunday night, after which I went over to the Roland sisters to watch the grammy.
I don't know why I even watched it...I didn't even see most of the movies nominated. I guess it's for fellowship...but everyone was glued to the TV. I think most people were gracious, and said they support the troops (not necessarily cause of the war) and wished peace to come quickly. I was mad and wanted to say %$%@##* when a group came up to receive an award, only to bash the president and the war. You #$^%%*^, don't you know who's watching this?!? I think it's TERRIBLE people are protesting and demonstrating ESPECIALLY in the U.S. It's bad for morale, and others countries see Americans as being idiotic and divided. Besides, their damage through vandalism and stopping of business causes $$$ to taxpayers for that city. Just ACCEPT that we're at war already! Okay, got that out of my chest.