Friday, June 06, 2003

Sunday, June 15, 2003. 1st Annual Tour du Park...fundraiserfor Baltimore City Parks. Great way to meet people, have some food, and get intimate with the city I'm ministering to.

Riding Time:
Begin 16-mile tour: Travels the Gwynns Falls Trail.
8:00-11:00 AM
All riders must be off the roads by: 1:30 PM
Festival in Carroll Park: Noon till 3:00 PM

I might have to miss church, but hopefully the following week there will be a few that will attend with me.
So yesterday I watched this Korean MV by was quite sweet (good sappy). Short synopsis (ok, maybe not too short): a lovely hairdresser is walking down the street and catches attention of handsome photographer. She blushes and he bows respectfully. She's kinda attracted to his attention, but walks away quickly. Photographer comes in to salon for a haircut. She tells the other woman to get lost (kindly of course). Then she begins a very romantic hairwashing. She accidentally gets soap in his eyes (foreshadow) He leaves a scarf behind. The girl resolves to return scarf to him. She enters his studio, to give the scarf to him, and it ends up a photo shoot. They have a lot of fun, become close friends; they ride race motorcycles on race track, the photographer's hobby...she likes him, but he's maintaining platonic rel. with her. In his studio, she tears out solo pictures of him and her, and put the two together. She spills some stuff on his material, and quickly sops it off with her own sweater. She's cold, puts on his shirt. Just then he comes in, sees his cute lady and takes some pictures, but runs out of film. She goes to his darkroom to get film, but alas, next to the film is chemical used for washing films. It tips over and falls all over her eyes and face. She's rushed to hospital, screaming. Photographer is crushed, in the waiting room. He goes home and find the cut-out picture of the two, realizes her love for him. Cut to last scene: Hairdresser girl recovers, sees completely fine. But she finds the photographer is gone. She goes to their race track one last time. He finds a blind man with dog. The blind man has her picture in his hand. She cries. End of story.
This gets award for best sappy video.

I was pondering this video this morning and what it meant to love someone. Surely to give your life to someone you love, giving your eyes isn't even an issue. God was challenging me by asking me if I would do the same for my brothers and sisters. I thought, sure, if it was my wife or lover, that'd be no problem, I'd be like the photographer if it came down to it. But the Lord was challenging me that true love is giving my life up for brothers and sisters, even eyes, kidney, liver...if I truly loved them, then I would willingly give it up for them. Very powerful and profound message, and I realized that this is the kind of heart and love I need to show and give to my fellow believers in Christ.

So yes, if you ever needed a body part, eye or can have mine. I belong to the Lord, and as long as I can see Him, I don't need to see anything else.

Thursday, June 05, 2003

I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to go hang-gliding. Saving money is just not inputted in my mind. But it looks SOOO cool. Was looking at the Honda Motorcycles website at lunch. The scooters look cool and cheaper, but I always thought scooters were more for girls. Though that's not true in island countries like Taiwan. Everyone has a scooter there. But it would be nice to have a Honda tour bike...
how in the world did a self-made tuna sandwich+garlic bread end up 7 bucks? NEVER again shall I make create my own food in the cafeteria! I don't know how many times I've said that.
Listenin' to Where Did the Train Go, by Jay Chow. I think it's his only song in Taiwanese, the unofficial language in the country. Needless to say, my favorite. I'll post the lyrics when I have more time.
Romans 8
31What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all--how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died--more than that, who was raised to life--is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."[12] 37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[13] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Wednesday, June 04, 2003

Someone posted on the Encouragee's Thread!!!
Back from Szechuan Best with John Gong and another co-worker. Shared this morning's dialogue with John. He was very encouraging...I'm thankful for a brother like him. The guy constantly fasts, which challenges me a lot. He reiterated to me that to meet God, one has to be very desperate to meet Him. It's not easy for me to be desperate a lot of times, because I foolishly believe that I can figure things out on my own, even my own spiritual life.
Psalm 84:2
2 My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the LORD ;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God.

My Conversation with the Big Guy

I had an amazing morning of conversation with God. I woke up late, and got to work late, which is usually pretty stressful. But as soon as I got inside my car, I began receiving so many words from the Lord. It wasn't anything like my usual prayer--in fact I felt like I was talking to someone sitting next to me. I didn't know how to take it...usually I have to seek Him earnestly and get bits and pieces of impressions from Him. He told me that it was because my ears were caked with crud. He said He has been getting through to me, and today I tuned the channel on the dial to Him. This was the first of many things he revealed:
-My spiritual ears are caked with crud that have to be cleaned out. The only way to do this is to increase my spiritual discipline, which He said had much to be left desired.
-Along the same lines, He next said that my brothers and I all had the same problem--we're still not running together because of the crud in our ears and oftentimes instead are missing His messages because we sorely lack spiritual discipline as a whole. He said to look to our sisters in Christ as an example. It was very humbling actually.
-But He reassured me to not be caught up in other's affairs, spiritual and otherwise, and VERY clearly told me what was wrong in my heart. He did reveal a bit of what individual brothers were going through spiritually, but told me not to worry about it...trusting Him myself was number one prerogative.
-Each and every member of my fellowship is FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made by Him...who am I to not love them with all of my heart, soul, and mind. He said my only concern was to LOVE them unconditionally, and that my heart has not been right. He told me to love the church, which He said I wasn't doing.
-At this point, I asked him for help in doing this, and He reassured me.
-He told me to work harder at my workplace, and set an example for others. He laid out all the things I was doing incorrectly.
-I brought up my concerns about where to be next year. He said for me to not worry, and to be content with what He has given me. At this point, I promised to trust Him completely, and fast from med school websites, anything that'd take my mind off trusting Him.
-I brought up questions about my significant other. He told me to not worry about her, and that as we were speaking, He was also preparing and readying her to meet me. He again reiterated the theme of the whole conversation, she will be FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY MADE.
-He told me to share some of the stuff we had talked about, to bless and encourage anyone reading this.
-I thanked Him and told Him I loved Him over and over again. Well, the rest doesn't need to be said.
This morning was so GOOD because HE IS SO GOOD!

Tuesday, June 03, 2003

Don Quixote, de la Mancha 1605-1615
One man scorned and covered with scars still strove with his last ounce of courage to reach the unreachable stars; and the world was better for this.

I'm Mr. Waitlist, but thought it'd be "fun" to imagine if I had to make the decision between the two if I were accepted to both--- (Hope I will be lucky and only get into the one God wants me to be, really)
Pittsburgh vs. Maryland
PROS:ranked top 20 A top-notch hospital. Agape Life Church!
City of Pittsburgh, very hilly, which I like. Only med school in town, mad props when you go there.
Close to some nice fishing/hiking spots.
Super expensivo! (200,000 for the 4 years there). It's in the middle of nowhere, not near coastal waters (can sail in Moraine Park I guess). Freezing winters
A great school, though top 40. New hospital, new facilities cropping up Agape Mission Church! LHF! (Less) expensive than Pitt (by 5000 per year) Sailing!!!
Let's face it...B'More City is mostly ghetto 'cept Peabody n' inner harbor Cross town from them Hopkins Med snobs
after all is said n' done, that's 10 yrs in this city!!! but hey, if I'm called then I'm called

Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi

Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace. Where there is hatred let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light; and
where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may'
not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and
it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Captain's Log: 7:57 PM.
"On high seas...or rather high harbor. Boat moving at 5 knots per hour. All is pirate ships approaching, no encroaching danger. Need to blow on mainsail to get Stormy moving. Will resolve to paddling if need be. Praying to God to send a storm to satisfy the sea coursing through one's veins."

Hehe...sailing was a lot of fun yesterday, although I wished the weather weren't quite so nice and non-breezy. The last session was in May, and they received plenty of rain and action. It was beautiful weather and scenery, watching the sun grow dimmer as dusk approached Baltimore inner harbor. I could recognize a couple landmarks, and learned of new ones, including the water tower that marks the dumping of the harbor into the mouth of Patapsco River. I was on a Sonar yesterday, which has a higher 'boom' than the usual J-22s. Which meant I would be less likely to be conked out by the pole attached to the mast.
Sailing terminologies of the day:
Tacking: turning sailboat bow-first across the wind.
Jibing: turning sailboat stern-first across the wind.
(tacking and jibing achieve the same result, just different way of looking at the same thing).
Close-haul: As close as you can go upwind without entering no-go, the area where the boat is moving in the exact same direction as wind, and sails are therefore killed.

Monday, June 02, 2003

Nora Jones' Don't Know Why...calming effect coming over me...

Karaoke aka Norebung this weekend peoples...
Sailing after work!!! I need to read 15 more pages to say I actually read the text beforehand. Although right now, tacking, jibing, it's all still jumbled terminology right now in my head. I need to see it for myself to remember it all.
To Brian: Yes, those seasons have ended, but try your best to embrace Fall with open arms
email from Johnny:
"yep, i gave redwood the deposit. the place is ours. i
already informed brian about it. i also asked about 1 br at redwood.
unfortunately, none are available."
-Well I'm happy that turned out well, but I am going to be seriously screwed housing-wise if I get into Maryland later this summer. Sam mentioned McHenry...which is OK, with me, but I would prefer to live somewhere closer to campus as well. Plus my car has been broken into twice last summer in front of their house, which I'm still bitter/wary of. Arrrgh...Dr Foxwell, let me in already!
Listenin to my mp3s at work with my new RioVolt player. The day's going by so much faster with my american/asian pop music. hehe...have to make sure I'm not singing along too loudly.

Sunday, June 01, 2003

Trying to study for my first sail class tomorrow. If you see the back of my RAV4, you'll see a Downtown Sailing Center sticker worn proudly and a "Eat Bertha's Mussels" sticker. Arrrgh...ready to got to them rough seas!
BTW...who wants to watch Finding Nemo, that Disney cartoon? Not a cartoon fan really, but heard good things about this film.
Got my official waitlist letter from UMd. It says that I'm placed at the top third of the waitlist...and to return a card of interest. From, another student said he had some inside source tell him those on the top tier of waitlist have a very *good* shot of getting in. Here's prayin...